[Soulie]

hope your mum gets better soon x

[Soulie]

yes, next week i am after some hair straightners :)

well if i thought about it properly.. i could have asked people to find the cheapest alton towers tickets, can’t find them any cheaper then £23 at moment, 3 years ago, managed to get 2 tickets for that

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i guess one out of 3 ain’t bad :)

we do need a place to stay though, can’t live with my inlaws can i? that would be asking for trouble

[Soulie]

so does that mean a Brazil and France tie?

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get me a job lined up and a place to stay, and a wife.. and i’ll be there

[Soulie]

i was’nt complaining, was just pointing out, i enjoyed it, a lot of it was true, and got me thinking some more.. and maybe i will react to that and somthing very positive will come from the reading

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finland have very relaxed laws about walking around naked in a field at 3am in the morning :)

i’m moving

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thanks cath for mine.. some bits made sense.. some bits did’nt.. i’ll add comments if i can

Soulie i feel you have or are coming through a very intense time, i feel you have gone through a period of depression and almost intense guilt over something?? again not gonna play guessing games hun thats not wot i do ……. this period you have gone through gave you a sense of isolation………and a period of insomnia? soulie i do beleive that you put urself down too much too……

i have been feeling guilty about somthing for 3 years, its no surprise to anyone on here if i say what that is, and i have felt isolated some what, and yes i am forever putting myself, blaming myself, hense the guilt thing

soulie i hope this next bit makes sense to you lol……your life at the moment is about balance, the real skill is about working together with others (or part of oneself) integrating each individuals movement so it becomes part of the whole…….practice allows you to bring others with you, , you must practice to get any process right then you can show others how its done…….now soulie i cant get what part of your life this relates to……but i think if you read it carefully digest it and apply it to whats happening in your life it will make sense i hope xx

it did’nt really make much sense to tell you the truth.. nothing sprung to mind.. i’ll read it over a few times though, but could take some explaining to myself

if what i am reading is right soulie you have or are on quite a journey, and for some reason i feel you are facing the unknown (yes i know we all are) but i feel you know what i am talking about the next step from the process you are going through is the unknown, you are preparing for something aren’t you? is it to tell someone something? someone you should have told what ever this is too but not quite had the courage? do it soulie. you will find the right moment and this person, i believe it is an older person will not be too surprised……..and you know what soulie you will find you have an ally

this is very true, i feel i am living a life, not knowing where its going or finding any real point to it, i have been living day to day a lot recently because of this, i have wanted to tell sombody somthing for so long, but i know they won’t listen, or they hav’nt done in the past, its not really about courage as such more to do with knowing its a step backwards again, i would’nt say they are old though

goodness soulie , what you see is not what you get with you is it? you are a deep thinker, and someone who battles within your self quite a lot? you know what soulie this ‘battle ‘ u seem to be having with yourself ? i really believe you are going to win it…….but a word of caution, do think it through, test out the scenarios in your mind, but dont over think it …..your head feels like spaghetti with wot ever this is with you soulie……..

i am always thinking, but i thought people saw that? i am forever thinking, and taking things too serious, trying to balance life and meanings. there is a constant battle with me, and i don’t need a caution, i always think things through, for i feel thats my downfull, i think too much, and don’t act as much as i should

do you know what soulie , i am saying all this stuff and from the soulie i have seen on the boards none of it seems right, but i can only say what i read soulie so in some ways i hope i am not too far off the mark

it reads mostly right, but like you said early.. on the boards i can be hard to read, but i know the few that no me, will agree that mostly it reads true

Soulie, all this that is going on with you now is not the time to action anything hun, you must relax and wait, stop straining at the leash lol…….its gonna get you absolutely no where hun…….the seeds you have planted over recent times will reach fruition hun….just breathe and let it happen, in the meantime try and sort out your inner self hun, what is it you really really want?

waiting is somthing i find hard to do, i am not the most paitent, and never have been, it what makes me come accross so desperate, i am not meaning in the sense of relationships, but everything in life, when i want somthing, i want it now sort of thing

i don’t recall any seeds i have planted, unless i have done without knowing i have planted them. what is it that i really want? truth is i have no idea

ok sweetie thats it, i do have to tell you that someone called ben came in in fact i want to use his full name of benjamin? dont know who that is ……sheila? does that make any sense? oh an soulie is that you and a mongrel dog lol up to ur knees in mud n stuff?? and peter? was he a childhood freind?

i got a friend called ben, but don’t call him benjamin, he hates that :) the only sheila i know is a very olds ex, ex motherlaw, she was a loverly person, who did live on a farm, who had a dog, which i was scared off

peter was the name of my uncle, who passed away 12 months ago

ok hope this one is right too i know i have been very accurate so far, so hope this continues……..

a lot of it i related too, but i do also feel a lot of it could relate to anybody else, i feel, under everyone shell, we all have the same inner feelings towards life, but thats just my opinion

it was a very good read, thankyou very much for it..

hugssssssssss xxxxx

[Soulie]

thanks all.. sunday i just spent at home, watching football.. plan was to go to the pub.. but lack of intrest from friends.. and a hang over from the night before, meant I spent it at home

make up for it this saturday though :)

[Soulie]

i reckon hes got phil and grant mixed up :)

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