Poetry in motion

You do not know me
Not a morsel more than a scratch
You know not a thing…Nothing
You don’t know the me below my skin
The deepest parts of me
The parts that matter
You don’t know
The words I combine into the perfect batter
The way they intertwine into perfection
You don’t realize
That the release of anger to completion
would complete the problem
Start to finish…Ten minutes
We could resolve it
You don’t know that
I like to feel special
A thought in anything would do
surprise me
I like those too
You don’t know just how much passion sleeps inside me
Against your negativity it weeps in silence
I sometimes create violence
Just to escape you
You don’t know me
Or what it takes
Yet you try to turn me on
But you do it wrong
You don’t know that spot on my neck
Not there, but…here
Go faster and harder
If you want me sincere
You don’t see the desires in my eyes
so I close them
drift to some other place
You don’t even notice
Disconnected from the emotion you claim to have for me
You don’t know my fantasies
In the darkest corners…hiding
Now saved for strangers I have yet to meet
You don’t know my pain
The reasons for the tears I shed
Even though your hand pulled the trigger…
You must have blinked
You don’t know that your tone never changing
changed me
Erased all the compassion within me
And replaced it with sadness
But you don’t know my sorrow
It remains masked by feelings borrowed
You don’t know how much I cringe
When you chew
Or the way you get Godly only when it’s good for you
Hypocritically criticizing everything that i do
If you only knew me
You would know
How much I long to laugh out loud…for real
To love life with you
And live it
You wouldn’t complain so much
About nothing and everything all at once
But you don’t know me

@jen_jen wrote:

“You’re so pretty and sexy” and I fall at your feet.
“Trust me, I love you” words sounding so sweet.
“I’ll be there for ever” that’s what you said.
“Give me your heart” but you wanted my bed.

“Marry me darling” you made me your wife.
“We were meant for each other” but it wasn’t for life.

“You’re stupid and ugly” words cutting so deep.
“No one else will have you” cry myself to sleep.
“You’re worthless, you’re nothing” tears me apart.
“I did it because I love you” breaking my heart.

“Don’t you dare answer back” making me feel so small.
“Don’t make me beat you” finally taking it all.

“You won’t leave me” but I have to to survive.
“You won’t last 5 minutes” disbelief in your eyes.
“You made me do it” desperation sets in.
“It’s because I love you” that’s worn so thin.

You thought you’d broken me, killed my spirit
And yes you demeaned me till I found my limits,
Hit rock bottom, the depths of despair
As you stood there laughing, pretending to care.
You said you loved me but it wasn’t real,
Thank god I found that core of inner steel.

20 years later and here I am, standing proud, standing strong.
My spirit intact, still alive and every day I prove you wrong.

Inadequate men with inadequate personalities make bullies.

Its just such a shame they can charm their way into people’s lives, and its a common theme for their true natures to show once they feel “safe”.

The fact that so many women get through it and out the other side with their inner core intact just goes to show how strong we all actually are.

And….I don’t buy that they are treated badly therefore treat others badly. Some of these men come from loving families and have no personal experience of being mistreated or bullied. They just do it because they can.

Philosphy of the Mind

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One Way Street

Where did you go?
You asked.
I went to a place you can’t follow;
A place where my blood runs fast
And my skin tingles
As though snowflakes are settling there.
It is difficult to breathe
And I look at you
Intensely.

Did you feel it?
I asked.
I went to a place you can’t follow
Was the reply.
But I know where you went
And I tried to follow
As you moved
In silken darkness.

Follow me again
You said with a smile.
I might one day
I replied.

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Don’t Look Back

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