LET YOUR YEH BE YEH

The thing that annoys me most, REALLY ANNOYS ME, is Cosy making the same thread over and over again and just lazily rearranging the words. I am NOT impressed.

*scowly face*

Orson- could make a whopping mistake here, but will try to chat o.k. what is first a “no vids” video? And lord what is “Steve fridge raider?” This has me really stumped…
Know said no more comments, gone, but really awful today have ants in my pants. Nothing like a female who is so angry wants to break something or some one, can’t. I am no quitter. Expression you know “Can not teach old dog new tricks?” Guess me.
I came in here a goal, something totally new out of my character. Seeing often trust an issue from reading, for solid 10 years and before too guess was basically an honest person. Have to be as well working with people daily who depend on trust with me helping. Know the difference when being with people and challenge at the distance. Certainly learned. Have been accused of multi name person (if you are could care less now, if you or any one has something of interest, I will ask, join). Have been think, accused a troll, providing evidence and true statements accused as well. People ignore me ok, will not ignore you if can help..people have backed away from me. Really hurts as I do also have faults not perfect. Challenging me often here, been on defense, too stiff, take too personal hurt and yes, even had few tears… so I try to suck it up, forget and move on. But again need help, honest help been tearing me up for 2 months, and today finally a bomb before a holiday weekend..so is this what I write now considered a chat. Got some good advise for me?
Trump has taken away funding and grants from agency work with through out u.s.a. 3rd in management level presently, safe and secured. However, very early am sat through big meetings with big upper management, boards as we let my hard worked skill team get the can with jobs. 6 people, 1 eleven years, trust my life with especially. Have families, bills. Sucks. Watched tears having to stay strong and provide comfort. Biting and burning my insides. We already do 3/4 jobs. Low pay. Long hours… now going to be provided interns from college learning. Ok with that need to learn..but in a crisis and need focus, who of them will I be able to rely on for my back up to assist? Who will be priority? So is this chatting at a distance? So upset. If this new method of saving funds does not help, my important agency will shut down completely.
Now you may suggest “Topp” does this mean death, suicide? If so feel like it right now, but sad have family who needs and depends on me soley. And to boot my buddy, real only comfort, just told today my dog has many many stones. Will not make surgery. Will be 10 next week. Matter of time. Special diet so forth. So my best companion who loves me unconditionally stays by my side always, wait through this period.
So how was your week.????
Linda
can not stop crying..have to get a grip..

Orson,thanks for reply.
Hope also you took it too as a venting female who really has no one to speak with right now, can not. Not directed as a negative rather positive as was reaching out for help. Honest.. Some of you have a great deal of strength here, do admire as mine has to stay in. Called boundaries if know what I mean..trained, stinks.. no choices. I feel people’s pain, and this is why stated often, can help others better than myself.
Thanks for explaining, makes sense, so if and when I do or not come in to chat will keep this in mind.
By the way, saying love to a stranger here is hardly ever heard of. Providing at a distance, made me feel some warmth and some peace. Thank you. The hug needed so to speak when go back to work tonight and see 2 who lost jobs today, and even if show up. The guilt not able to let them know you knew, not knowing when it would happen…
And I seriously hope no one comes after your comments on this chat/venting here. What stated is real pain, honest to god truth. No one please use for entertainment.
Orson, xxxxxxxxxxooooooooo
Linda

You got friends in F2 Orson?