I dont know u very well jeanie , however, your sorrow and struggle came over loud and clear, and yet in this life we all have curved balls thrown at us time and time again, take it from one who knows , eventually you learn to throw them back, not always successfully but life takes us down the path its meant to whether its good or bad. the coping mechanism is another thing, whether it be from faceless people on a computor, many of them you will probably never meet (and yet maybe some you will ) or from the spiritual beings you have around you, or from close family and friends , or from your inner self, you will get through this, but, allow urself the grieving process, but, remember the ‘special’ times you alone shared
love and hugs to a stranger , who is possibly just a freind i havent met yet
cath xxxxxxxxxxx