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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6mLlBzsURaM
my sisters were older,i was a late baby o a late baby and i see my sisters :)
bliddy hell 1964 ! i was only 4 ! i can remember it like it was yesterday, my oldest sister wanted to take me for HIstory” in the making :) mum wouldnt let her………my mum was scared im be trampled with hysteria ! . middle sister was releived,
oh fvck !
oh for simple ,better times…
15 years on mum and sisters away,,,only me and my dad, that i never talked too…
the sex pistols/eater/buzzcoks ( with howard devoto) …………..
its not that my father ignored me,,he was in too much pain and i was a reminder of them all. we never ever discussed my mum or sisters again,,it was like they did not live ! like they were never here.
im the double of my mother. i see that from pictures.
i sometimes just want to meet someone that knew her,,so i could speak about her..the stories i HAVE heard were that my mum and oldest sister were the life and soul and damm witty !
sometimes i struggle to remember her eyes,her emerald green eyes.
The laughter she brought to her friends as a gallus bisom !
the stories HERSTORY that i was too young,,
in amid the longing sighs,my mammy…the life and soul..ooh for 5 minutes with ya mum.
I wish i knew ya.
I couldnt get the vid to work, but will try tomorrow. My mum also has emerald green eyes, but they never carried on to any of us.
Dont torture yourself over things you. Im sure if she could now she would hug you. And give you the love you desire.
Love you rubes x
och well…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..y viva la socialiste la belle et liberta!
@rubyred wrote:
och i know hen,,, i think thats why i over compensate with love to jordan and stacey.. there all i have . my mum and oldest sister died with 2 weeks of each other,,then middle sister 6 weeks later ! i Grew up witha dad that could not “hold me” …he was a great daddy,a glasgow boy. but he was being strong !..which meant i am “strong”.. he was left with me ,a precoisus wee Ballet dancer :) ” but strength meant no sissy dancing. and it meant being THAT strong ya NEVER EVER cry,,,
thank fvck for punk ! i embarrassed him with pink hair etc,,bondage clothes from vivienne westwood. i left him. and we wrote beautiful letters to each other. i have kept every written letter. in one he says ” lesley theres a wee bit of me beating in your wee heart,go see the world”I got permission to go away forever..i was pregnant ! I wanted my daddy..went home had jordan.then he dared meet the pig ! (stepmother that got everything) .
I married Jack 5 years later and i have the pictures,,i have an extra special one of me in a emerald green beret ( wedding hat) speaking to him,,and he wept. I have great pictures of me a daddy.he died,assured his wildest wee one was married. I had no say in funereal matters, i dunno if ya know Tam Dean burn and Mary Ward.. pals of my dad. we sang..oh how we sang..
theres a valley in Spain called Jarama ..its a place that we all know so well…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..y viva la socialiste la belle et liberta!
thank you….thank YOU,,,that god for you !
Posted: Sat Mar 01, 2008 3:20 am
do you ever sleep ?
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