Happy Mothers Day Mums

Mothers day is extra hard for me I dread it every year,
For I have lost a wonderful mother, and one of my most precious sons.
When I lost you both, a big part of me died too.
The only comfort I draw from this is I know my son Dominic is with you,
Please, protect and watch over him, give him lots of extra cuddles and love for me mum
Until I can once again see you both wrap my arms around you, and take over
And be his mum once again.
I know that this is silly but sometimes
I feel I failed you both.
I long to feel your protective arms around me telling me everything will be all right. I’m so sorry I wasn’t there for you, the day you died mum I would change it if only I could.
That sunny June day, as I raced to be by your bed,
A million thoughts spun through my head.
Were you in pain were you aware?
Did you sense, I was not there?
I’ve relived that day so many time’s
Playing it over and over again in my mind
Just hoping I could change the ending
Praying that you felt the love I was sending
Begging I could have told you once more,
“I love you Mum” as I had before.
To talk of the past, or things yet to do.
As I sit here thinking with my pen in my hand
My head bowed down I ponder on these sad thoughts.
Then memories Of You flood my mind
I remember everything about you,
Your scent, you smile, your touch,
The way you walked, the way you talked,
The way you smiled at me meant so much.
I remember all the words you said to me,
Some funny, some wise, some seemed unkind
All of the things you did for me,
I see them all now with wiser eyes.
You are gone from me now,
But one thing no one can take away,
Your memory that resides inside my heart,
And they light up my darkest days…
You are my wonderful Mother
Angel’s took you, my wonderful mother,
Made you a mother who would never grow old;
For as far back as I can remember
You showed me how to be myself
You showed me leadership
You taught me to be strong
You taught me the importance of family
You provided me with unconditional love
You have showed me to be sensitivity to people’s needs
You handed down to me the important values in life
You showed me I can obtain my goals
You set me an example, throughout your life
Of what a mother and woman should be like
You were always by my side to give me support
To give me confidence, and advice (even when not wanted)
For as long as I can remember
You were the person I looked up to
So strong so sensitive so pretty
You always provided me with stability
Full of laughter full of tears full of love
What I have become today, it’s due to your love
When you have a mother
Who cares so much for you?
That anything you want
Become her desires
When you have a mother
Who is so understanding that?
No matter what is bothering you
She can make you smile
When you have a mother
Who is so strong that
No matter what obstacles she faces
She is always confident in front of you
When you have a mother
Who actively pursues her goals in life?
But includes you in all her goals
I was very lucky indeed
Having a mother like you
Made it easy to grow up
Into a loving, strong adult
Thank you for being this kind of wonderful mother.
Still today you are everything
I want to become and I promise
I will teach my children the same
I wish I could tell you today how much I love and miss you

Just a few lines, To show we still care To say how much we miss you, And to wish you could still be here We know that you are happy now, You’re free from hurt and pain We know that you still love us, But our lives are not the same Your grandchildren miss you dearly, There so sad you had to leave You are a special mum and Nan, Now all we can do is grieve happy mothers day mum lots of love
Angel
X x X

To all those people who are fortunate enough to be able to say happy mothers day…whether in person, by card, txt or phone…you truely are blessed and should remember your mother everyday, not just today!!! Mum I can’t say it to you, but pray that you remember how much I love you, now and forever xxx

Real tears are not those that fall from your eyes and cover your face.
Real tears are those that fall from your heart and cover your soul

hope all the mums have a fab mothers day :)