Gone

Firstly……… Annette, i get on well with you, i have no problem with you, except for the incident with my photo which i may have taken the wrong way (as you must know syntax is one of the hardest forms of communication). i got past it, but somehow your “chat friends” decided that we were enemies, and one in particular wouldn’t or couldn’t stop with snide remarks. if you remember i even invited you out for lunch ? offer still stands.

a little about me…….. yes i have been open in the room about myself, there is nothing i have said that i wouldnt tell a stranger, so no one can hold any skeleton over me and give me something to reproach myself for, i don’t do behind the scenes gossiping or nastiness, it just isnt me.
my back was broken in 93, at the hands of a psychopath (my ex) i had to be resuscitated and was told i would never walk again, i proved them wrong with hard work. i divorced, walked away with nothing but my pride and started my life again. but! because of spinal cord damage i have a neurological disease called Adhesive Arachnoiditis, which behaves similarly to M.S.
Stress is a damning factor, too much stress and it flares up, and trust me it is pain that you would never believe or want to experience. i cope, imagine forever walking like you can feel broken glass in your feet, or that you have broken a bone and thats the type of pain i experience on a daily basis, so i tend to stay clear of stress. im proud of myself, ive coped with a hell of a lot, and put downs when theyre not meant in fun hurt! ive been abused all my life and certainly won’t accept it from strangers who neither know the effects of abuse or the pain it causes, lucky them!
im also proud that i can sail, paint, and play golf something i really should never have been able to do again, yes im fit, but the pain remains it will never go, and recently i was told that one day i may wake up completely paralysed from the waist down. so im making the most of what time i have. and i like to do it in a friendly way.
The likes of Joker (who isnt one) that feels the need to do what he does is no better than my ex husband. a cynical psychopath who feeds on hurting people, i wish him well, he must be a very lonely man and will probably stay that way

Who knows, maybe at some stage i will pop in and say hello, but for now i need to relax, get rid of the stress, and regroup my health.

i dont have skeletons in my cupboards, i dont hurt people, i dont abuse people, im just a nice ordinary middle aged woman. in the “real world” i am very much liked, you may say why use chat? i used chat because in the lonely times its company, i dont have people around me all day, people in my life also have lives separate from my own.