dear anc the agony aunt

ALL my life i have been bullied, from school and even up till today even, when i was at school i had national health specs,but bigger lads kept knocking them off my face, but mummy who is now dead, used to put them together with sticky plaster,i also had an hearing aid but somebody nicked it, and sold it to a pawn shop, when i was a teenager mummy and daddy sent me to boarding school,they thought it was for the best, but i sense they just wanted shut of me, why else did they used to wrap up my sandwiches with a road map?, it didnt serve me well at public school, cos flashman and his mates used to bum me rotten, they told me it was good for me, and i of course beleived them, in fact i used to ask them for it, its the closest feeling ive ever had to being loved.
later on in life i found the internet and chat sites
at last i thought salvation, i can pretend to be a 6ft geezer,dead hard with big muscles
but hey i got rumbled, somebody who knew me, outed me, and told f/book in reality he is a 5ft,ginger balding geek,which is true i suppose,so my question to you is anc or anybody else. im sat on a bridge with my lap top, should i jump or what?